If you regularly read my blog, you’ll notice I haven’t posted for a while. A pretty long while, actually. It’s not like I didn’t have anything to put out in the inter-web air. A thousand thoughts swim through my brain in the span of 5 minutes. I just couldn’t process the jumbled chaos in my head.
Like children being gassed outside the Holy Land.
And kids dying of cancer.
And friends that are in a desert fighting a war that should be over.
And fellow community members that don’t have jobs and need to get their groceries at the food bank.
Thursday evening appointments with my therapist were highly anticipated. Only because I knew for 50 minutes, someone would tell me I would live.
Long enough God - you’ve ignored me long enough.
I’ve looked at the back of your head long enough. Long enough I’ve carried this ton of trouble, lived with a stomach full of pain. Long enough my arrogant enemies have looked down their noses at me.
Take a good look at me, God, my God;
I want to look life in the eye,
So no enemy can get the best of me
or laugh when I fall on my face.
I’ve thrown myself headlong into your arms.
I’m celebrating your rescue.
I’m singing at the top of my lungs,
I’m so full of answered prayers.